When you're a small child, or at best when you think back to it, it's easy to remember all the good things. It's not hard to remember what it's like to be happy and to be the best that you can be. It's easy to remember you had so much fun playing around with all the neighbor kids and that things were always perfect. Things change as we grow older, though.
Everything was much better in those days, from the food to the cartoons to just- life in general. It seemed like the world was perfect.
Then you started growing up and seeing little flaws in everything. Dad and mom weren't as close as they were before. In fact, it felt like you wanted nothing to do with them.
The neighborhood kids stopped spending time with each other. One day, everyone just went their separate ways. That was the last time that you counseled me together as friends, and I'm sure you can't even remember that specific day.
You started going to work your part-time job after school, your school friends became more important than anything and you needed to make money to get to go out with them. You started learning responsibility – which let's not pretend? Responsibility isn't the most fun part of the universe to start with, but you have to learn it in order to survive in the real world.
Once you get to college- Well most people have snapped out of the, “I hate my parents” phases and they go off to university or college, and then that's that. You're officially a grownup. In elementary and high school, you have second chances like crazy. At each turn you got a second chance. Some colleges offer second chance programs should you really mess up, but more often than not, that's your one chance. You get one chance to prove yourself and prove that you're able to do what you say you can do.
A lot of people that I've met didn't pull through their first or second chance, which was all she wrote. They didn't get another chance next unless it was back to a nearby college, and then they had the chance to apply at the university again. Those were a minimum of the experiences that I witnessed from people. They took their chance, they blew it, and that was all she wrote.
People stopped giving as numerous chances. You're an adult now–you need to know better. You should know better than doing something of that nature, you should know better than doing such things as this, you should know better than acting such as this or that does or does not matter. You start taking sides on any issue, you start taking sides upon your friends and family. The people that were your best friends? You just can't be friends with them anymore because of the way that things ended up.
Your eyes are starting to become more open about things, and also you start thinking that maybe, just maybe becoming an adult isn't all it had been cracked up to be. People believe that being an adult is the best thing in the universe, but all it is-all it comes down to is that you get less chances, you should know better than the things you did, you lose friends, you lose relationships, and you lose people in your life that you thought were always going to become there.
A certain coldness starts to rear its ugly head. It comes down out and sometimes the sweet, innocent side will still emerge, wanting to silence the ugly, disgusting head from the cold and ugly monster that's starting to take over. Depression shows up. Anxieties about in which you “should” be in life show up.
People start asking them questions, why aren't you there yet. What's stopped you against getting there? They don't realize that this causes more anger. This will cause more of a rage to develop inside. I'm not there because I'm focusing on it! Can't you see I'm doing the very best that I can?! And sometimes- they'll cause you to feel that because of your age, the very best that you can still isn't good enough.
People grow colder as they age because they feel inferior. They feel that they'll never be good enough. They feel invalidated in their thoughts and feelings, because they're a grownup now. Let me tell you now – you're not inferior. You are good enough, and you keep trying your hardest, since your thoughts, your feelings, and your life are valid.
